I started saying FUCK YOU to the world and everyone in it the day my grandpa died. I've realized since that day things just crumbled in my life. Things that went wrong for me just made me want to not trust anyone.
First my grandpa is dead, my sister leaves home, my parents abused me, my brother-in-law who I was close with at the time said he was leaving my sister so he didn't know if he was ever see me again, my other sister who I had grown a strong bond with runs away from home and my parents were continuously on/off with divorce threats...HMMM!!! AND THEY WONDER WHY I HAVE TRUST AND STABILITY ISSUES!
I can't blame it all on them but fuck I was young when this all happen. Your not suppose to be dealing with that when your a kid. Now I know why I refuse to let someone part of my world. I expect them to not be around anyways all they're going to do is leave so I end up hurt and disappointed. For a quick second I've let my guard down to allow someone in but I can't help to think WHY? When I already know the ending.
Once again I'm going back to my old self and saying "FUCK YOU" because this shit is for the birds...
